Letting it all go

Friday marks the last day of my job at Avante.  As you know from reading the past year, I have been doing a lot of contemplating of my life. I know without big risk, big change can't come, I know without being willing to let go of the past, you can't move onto your future.  I have decided it was time to do this not only figuratively but literally.

I quit my job. I don't have another job. 


I had an epiphany in the shower (where all good epiphanies are born). I have an English degree,I want to have a career to carry me the rest of my life and stop this mindless job hopping for the almighty dollar, I want to have joy, be surrounded by hope, do something that matters at the end of the day. I want to be creative and spend as much time with Cooper as I can. 


I am a TEACHER!  


It came to me just like that.  I have no doubt it will be thankless and hard and challenging, but isn't that what I already have dealt with minus the joy, hope and service I long for?

I am taking my credentialing test this summer. I hope to then be able to land a job to teach as soon as the fall, if not...Plan B will just "show up".  I KNOW it will work as it's supposed to.  Once this decision was made there was nothing I felt but peace, and have ever since.  Since so much changed at work in the past 2 months, it was crazy for me to stay just to stick it out.  I just survived the hardest 5 years of my life regarding death of loved ones and I was sitting all day in a nursing home.  The irony was not lost on me and I knew God was having a good laugh. 


My house is empty, the next buyer's deal may actually go through if I continue to push the bank to review my proposal in a timely manner.  I have made my last big garage sale for this Sat...and I when that day ends........ I basically have let it ALL GO. 


ALL of it.  VERY little is left. I have wiped the slate in clean, time to rebuild. 


I guess there is nothing else left to do after that but...


 BLOOM!

You've got a FWIEND in me and other medleys

Last day of school

Friday was Cooper's last day of school and it's SUMMER!  He has learned so much this year, it's amazing how much he can do now and how much he's progressed :)

Magical Memorial Day Weekend 2012

 We were so lucky to get invited by our friends Julie and Ed to spend a few days with them at Fort Wilderness Lodge and spent yesterday at the Magic Kingdom.  

We loved the campfire sing-a-long and got to meet a lot of characters. The kids had a blast playing together and I am so happy summer has begun!!

Interview with Cooper- age 4 1/2

Cell phone dump

Mother's Day 2012

Cooper and I spent this Mother's Day afternoon at the Avengers in 3D.  I totally gave in to him seeing the movie, it's PG13 and a bit violent I think especially in 3D..but I got to spend the afternoon with Cooper, Twizzlers AND Robert Downey Jr. as Iron Man so....it was a win/win. He's 4 1/2...he's a big boy he told me AND he wore a tie and boots so...he could handle it.

The Road to Self Renewal

"Meaning is not something you stumble across, like the answer to a riddle or the prize in a treasure hunt. 

Meaning is something you build into your life. You build it out of your own past, out of your affections and loyalties, out of the experience of humankind as it is passed on to you, out of your own talent and understanding, out of the things you believe in, out of the things and people you love, out of the values for which you are willing to sacrifice something. 

The ingredients are there. You are the only one who can put them together into that unique pattern that will be your life.

 Let it be a life that has dignity and meaning for you. If it does, then the particular balance of success or failure is of less account"

John Gardner

(credit to Jennifer Price for giving me parts of this speech)