Onward and Upward

January has blown in this year with the winds of change chasing me. 

I never mentioned it but I put the house on the rental market at the end of the year.With just a few bites and my impatience, I have  now decided a more permanent solution is needed.  The point of us moving was to downsize, save money, let me keep Cooper in private school and save for his college.  Renting the house out to cover the mortgage would be a short term solution, but long term, I have no vision for.  I don't "see myself" anywhere in a few years, I don't know what I want to do, but I know I need to get my "house" in order.  

Lots of contemplation, and one phone call later, the house will go up for sale this week. I feel like onward and upward doesn't happen to those who are complacent. Change means leaving your comfort zone and if I am serious about building the life I really want, this house and the expenses of it are an anchor to my cruise ship I am trying to sail off into the sunset on. I turn 39 year this year, that's one year away from 40 and my big plans for a trip to Italy.  I have a LIFE I want to live, and watching my hard earned money fly out for the mortgage, house maintenance, the pool etc....isn't where I want it to go.

I have put my heart into this house, but I know that holding on to this "past" is holding me back from my "future". I don't know what it holds, but I know I need to trust and let the winds take me where they may.

"The sooner we can let go of the past, the sooner we can get on with the “now”, our daily life.  If we don’t let it go, it becomes a wall, a barrier, and it prevents us from the vibrancy, the aliveness, the glory that our life should be. "