Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
Letting it all go
Friday marks the last day of my job at Avante. As you know from reading the past year, I have been doing a lot of contemplating of my life. I know without big risk, big change can't come, I know without being willing to let go of the past, you can't move onto your future. I have decided it was time to do this not only figuratively but literally.
I quit my job. I don't have another job.
I had an epiphany in the shower (where all good epiphanies are born). I have an English degree,I want to have a career to carry me the rest of my life and stop this mindless job hopping for the almighty dollar, I want to have joy, be surrounded by hope, do something that matters at the end of the day. I want to be creative and spend as much time with Cooper as I can.
I am a TEACHER!
It came to me just like that. I have no doubt it will be thankless and hard and challenging, but isn't that what I already have dealt with minus the joy, hope and service I long for?
I am taking my credentialing test this summer. I hope to then be able to land a job to teach as soon as the fall, if not...Plan B will just "show up". I KNOW it will work as it's supposed to. Once this decision was made there was nothing I felt but peace, and have ever since. Since so much changed at work in the past 2 months, it was crazy for me to stay just to stick it out. I just survived the hardest 5 years of my life regarding death of loved ones and I was sitting all day in a nursing home. The irony was not lost on me and I knew God was having a good laugh.
My house is empty, the next buyer's deal may actually go through if I continue to push the bank to review my proposal in a timely manner. I have made my last big garage sale for this Sat...and I when that day ends........ I basically have let it ALL GO.
ALL of it. VERY little is left. I have wiped the slate in clean, time to rebuild.
I guess there is nothing else left to do after that but...
BLOOM!
I quit my job. I don't have another job.
I had an epiphany in the shower (where all good epiphanies are born). I have an English degree,I want to have a career to carry me the rest of my life and stop this mindless job hopping for the almighty dollar, I want to have joy, be surrounded by hope, do something that matters at the end of the day. I want to be creative and spend as much time with Cooper as I can.
I am a TEACHER!
It came to me just like that. I have no doubt it will be thankless and hard and challenging, but isn't that what I already have dealt with minus the joy, hope and service I long for?
I am taking my credentialing test this summer. I hope to then be able to land a job to teach as soon as the fall, if not...Plan B will just "show up". I KNOW it will work as it's supposed to. Once this decision was made there was nothing I felt but peace, and have ever since. Since so much changed at work in the past 2 months, it was crazy for me to stay just to stick it out. I just survived the hardest 5 years of my life regarding death of loved ones and I was sitting all day in a nursing home. The irony was not lost on me and I knew God was having a good laugh.
My house is empty, the next buyer's deal may actually go through if I continue to push the bank to review my proposal in a timely manner. I have made my last big garage sale for this Sat...and I when that day ends........ I basically have let it ALL GO.
ALL of it. VERY little is left. I have wiped the slate in clean, time to rebuild.
I guess there is nothing else left to do after that but...
BLOOM!
Saturday, June 2, 2012
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