Thursday, January 31, 2008
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Friday, January 25, 2008
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
The continued discussion of death keeps popping up every day in my life and I can't decide if I am just sensitive to it since my dad's passing or if it just comes up more. I, like everyone else, was shocked at Heath Ledger's death, and I obviously don't know him. I wonder about his ex-fiance Michelle Williams and their daughter and how they are doing, if they are in NY yet and how terrible it must be. I guess when you know the hell and shock of losing someone you love, you empathize with others and how traumatized you feel for a while. 5 months later some days I still feel like "I can't believe that happened!" and then I have this terrible anger and jealousy at those who don't know what it's like. I know that is awful but it's true and as I always say "Anger is an emotion we know how to express, the others are harder". Being mad a leukemia or heart disease that took my dad isn't tangible, so I am jealous and mad at others who have their nuclear family still in tack. I am terribly judgemental when I hear people talk about their parents and I think they don't know how lucky they are and that they take it all for granted. I am sure it's part of grieving but just to be honest...that's how I feel.
In other crazy entertainment news...what up with Britney Spears??? Will someone please publicly diagnose her Biopolar with Borderline Personality Disorder and get the girl some hard core drugs! Please..how much more can the public take? She is everywhere with this! I have self diagnosed her with the help of Dr Phil and Dr Drew...I have my MD from TV people!
This is a terrible post and I have almost deleted it twice but I think I'll keep it. It's a gray day, I have gray thoughts and what the hell....the sun will come out...tomorrow.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Saturday, January 19, 2008
In a few days we will try spinning and I think I'll hit a yoga class, next time I need a good laugh and not a workout...we'll hit up the hip hop again.
Friday, January 18, 2008
pictures of Grant in the snow...
doesn't this baby look like my dad?
If the great HB came back into this world through my nephew, my sister will have one heck of a time keeping this kid out of the bars! LOL
Who loves ya baby? as my dad would say.
I went to dinner last night with Hope and Jennifer, had a great night out like a real adult. I had two glasses of Sangria and came home and dropped into bed. What a nice solid sleep I had last night. I do have a bit of regret over the chocolate cake I had with the Sangria but our conversation was tough (CANCER SUCKS!) so I deserved the cake, right?
I am getting myself ready for my work trip to NYC. Rob is happy to have Cooper all to himself I think but I might have some anxiety about leaving my babies (yes that includes Rob) for three days alone. Not that they can't handle it but I do think I am the glue that keeps it all together, I am sure he will prove me wrong :)
Rob has started us on an excercise schedule starting tomorrow (hence the cake and sangria last night). He is already in full swing doing a bootcamp already this week and together we are going to "Hip Hop" tomorrow morning while Cooper goes to Grammie's.
If I can't walk tomorrow, I'll let you know.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
This morning I was awoken by the sweet screechings of a squirrel monkey "talking" in his crib. We can't seem to capture it on video yet but if he takes after his mommy, once he finds his voice, he will never shut up :) Sing on little squirrel monkey, sing on!
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Friday, January 11, 2008
Cooper turns 4 months on the 19th and his visit today went really well. He is now 14 pounds and he growing like a weed right on schedule! The doctor saw two little tooth buds under the skin(Grammie was right) and he can now have rice cereal 3 times a day. We don't go back until his 6 month check up.
Cooper comes from tough stock...he didn't even cry but for 1 minute when we got his shots today but wait until you hear how tough Cooper's oldest cousin Tyler is.
Yesterday we were excited to hear that cousin Britany's national gym meet this year is here in Florida. We are really excited to bring Cooper, Pop and the whole family over to watch her this year. Sure beats past trips to the middle of nowhere like Oklahoma and Mississippi!
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
|I love "Little People, Big World" on TLC. I have no idea why but I have been watching it from the beginning and Rob and I sit and asked each other questions all day long as we watch. It fascinates us for some reason. We love to watch how they live, what they do, how messy their house is etc. I have been crazy with the little people since my sister met one of the original munchkins from the Wizard of Oz (crazy right?).|
But come on now...is EVERYONE getting DUIs and then publicity for their trials? Apparently to make it in Hollywood you now have a head shots and a mug shot. I guess it gives the shows ratings or maybe his little head is getting "too big" :)
Sunday, January 6, 2008
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
It was the best of times, it was the worst of times....that is what 2007 was to me.
I guess I can now officially call it a new year since it's Jan 1 but I have to admit, I have been pretending my new year started Sept 19th when Cooper was born. As you all know, besides the best thing that ever happened to me (Cooper), 2007 was the worst year of my life. It's strange how such terrible things can happen and then the best thing...all in the first 9 months of a year. While I was able to enjoy a wonderful pregnancy, it got so distracted by the drama that became my life.
So, I put behind me: Tampa, Moffitt Cancer Center and all things related to leukemia, ICU, moving, buying and selling a home in today's market, dysfunctional family who continued to be consistently dysfunctional as I dealt with the illness and then death of a parent, the initial shock and early stages of grief of losing my dad, bereavement/mass cards and people coming out of the woodwork to give pity and sympathy.
From this year I gained:
- a wonderful son, God truly blessed us when he gave us Cooper, I would do it all again and more if I had to in order to have this precious little boy.
- a closer relationship with real friends and family who last year I learned will always answer the phone to listen, jump on a plane to see you when you need them the most and cry with you when that's all you can do.
- a stronger marriage....what didn't kill us made us stronger and I can't image my life journey without Rob and the many lessons we have learned together.
- a nephew :)
- about 20 plus pounds that I let myself put on due to the stress and pregnancy that now I can't believe it let myself do when now almost 3 years ago before my wedding I was running 5 miles a day! ACK!
So.....good riddance 2007, I made it to 2008!