I hate New Years. I love the hope of the new year to come but I hate New Year's Eve and all the un-necessary hoopla. 2009 was not my year. Hope died, I lost my job at Mimeo, I got a new job at Omni, Pop died, Grandma is dying. To me that summed up the year. I am tired. I am sad. I am relieved to see this year end.
Tonight I will eat pizza with my husband and toddler, put on comfy pjs and Hope's fluffy socks I have been wearing and sleep. I want to plant my butt on the couch and never get up again...so I think I will.
I have lots of new plans for 2010 though. I no longer want to be "re-active" to things in my life...I want to be "pro-active". I want to plan fun things for my family and only focus on the 3 of us. I want to be selfish. I want to say NO more when I don't want to do things and stop doing things "because I should". I want to stop hearing/caring/asking about others...I can barely keep things up around here...why do I care what goes on elsewhere? I need some ME time, Rob and I need some US time and Cooper needs some down time. Like I said ...I am tired, I am emotionally exhausted...I am done with 2009.
Of course there were great moments in 2009. Cooper is the joy of my life and I have blogged about all the great stuff here all year. But the truth is...it was hard. It IS hard....don't let the glossy photos and the fun exclamation points in the text fool you.
For 2010, Rob and I will celebrate our 5 year wedding anniversary and I want to go a on a little get-a-away just the two of us. I want to see my sister and her new baby, I want to continue to love my new job and I want to watch Cooper flourish and grow in the amazing ways that kids do. I want to feel better, physically and emotionally ....I guess I need to eat less ice cream and see the inside of the gym more :( hahaha. I want to continually let my friends and family know how very much I love them, how much I need their support in my life and how much I appreciate them loving me and taking this journey called life with me.
So...I may stay up just to see if Dick Clark makes his yearly appearance or I may crash at 8pm like I so want to do. Either way, 2010 will come and eventually go and I hope to have a better year coming up then the one I just lived through. I wish continually health, happiness and joy for you all as well :) xoxoox
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Celebrating Christmas
In the past two weeks I:
watched the kids play......
played photographer.....
cooked, baked and cooked some more.....
visited with my nieces and nephew....
celebrated 2 birthdays.....watched the kids play......
played photographer.....
cooked, baked and cooked some more.....
watched Cooper wake up in amazement that Santa ate all his cookies and drank all the milk... Unwrapped tons of presents with my family....celebrated the birth of Christ....
then got over stimulated, over sugared up, grouchy and tired and now am watching mindless TV until work tomorrow :)
Hope you all enjoyed your time off too!
then got over stimulated, over sugared up, grouchy and tired and now am watching mindless TV until work tomorrow :)
Hope you all enjoyed your time off too!
Friday, December 25, 2009
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Monday, December 21, 2009
Whew....
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Friday, December 18, 2009
Trying to exhale
We are in a holding pattern...waiting for my grandmother to pass. Cooper is the first to tell you she is going to heaven to be with Pop Pop and we have to say bye bye. We have been holding like this for days...I am sure it won't be much longer.
I am tired. I am numb. I want to bake from my grandmother's Christmas recipes and eat until I myself can't breathe anymore.
So....bread is rising on the countertop, chocolate is melting on the stove...and I am considering baking strufoli (honey balls).
Rob's family is coming tonight for the weekend to celebrate Christmas and to have Britany and Christopher's Bday party. I am excited about being with the kids but I am hiding the saddness that my family here on earth is getting smaller...again.
I guess I'll just eat my way through it...don't you wish I was a runner and could run my way through it? Maybe next year I'll take that up again..in the meantime...bring on the baking.
I am tired. I am numb. I want to bake from my grandmother's Christmas recipes and eat until I myself can't breathe anymore.
So....bread is rising on the countertop, chocolate is melting on the stove...and I am considering baking strufoli (honey balls).
Rob's family is coming tonight for the weekend to celebrate Christmas and to have Britany and Christopher's Bday party. I am excited about being with the kids but I am hiding the saddness that my family here on earth is getting smaller...again.
I guess I'll just eat my way through it...don't you wish I was a runner and could run my way through it? Maybe next year I'll take that up again..in the meantime...bring on the baking.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Orlando Weekend
This weekend was my company Christmas party so Rob and I packed up Cooper and headed to O-town :) We stayed at the JW Marriott and had a great day with Aimee and her family at ICE! at the Gaylord Palm Resort. We had so much fun! ICE! was amazing the ice sculptures where fantastic and Cooper even slid down the giant ice slide all by himself! We were sooo cold in 9 degree weather and happy to wear the blue coats they give out before you go in.
Cooper LOVED Aimee and her family and almost didn't want to stay with us Saturday night after the Omni Holiday Party...he told me he wanted to go back home with her.
We were going to go to Sea World, but my grandmother is doing very poorly so we picked up my Uncle Bobby at the airport and came home today. It was good to have a down day after a busy day yesterday plus Cooper was so excited to sleep at the hotel we all really didn't sleep that much.
It's beginning to be a busy with week with Robin and her family coming Friday and my Uncle here as we sit at Nona's bedside.
Cooper LOVED Aimee and her family and almost didn't want to stay with us Saturday night after the Omni Holiday Party...he told me he wanted to go back home with her.
We were going to go to Sea World, but my grandmother is doing very poorly so we picked up my Uncle Bobby at the airport and came home today. It was good to have a down day after a busy day yesterday plus Cooper was so excited to sleep at the hotel we all really didn't sleep that much.
It's beginning to be a busy with week with Robin and her family coming Friday and my Uncle here as we sit at Nona's bedside.
Friday, December 11, 2009
Night Night sleep tight....
Well folks we have moved out of the toddler bed and into a big boy bed! Cooper is sleeping in his full size bed now and loves to tell you "wow!" "it's nice!" every time he goes in his room.
Cooper came to work with me today since Phina has taken a turn for the worse and my mom was with her all day. We went to an Alzheimer's day care and Cooper sang Jingle Bells and helped lead me in caroling other songs. He was the hit of the adult day care, he sang, danced and blew kisses as he left.
We are off to a full weekend...can't wait to post pictures Sunday night! Have a great weekend!
Cooper came to work with me today since Phina has taken a turn for the worse and my mom was with her all day. We went to an Alzheimer's day care and Cooper sang Jingle Bells and helped lead me in caroling other songs. He was the hit of the adult day care, he sang, danced and blew kisses as he left.
We are off to a full weekend...can't wait to post pictures Sunday night! Have a great weekend!
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Happy Birthday Grant!
Since you are celebrating your birthday today...here's our birthday message :)
Happy 2nd Birthday Grant!
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
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